Two at a Time

Two Names You Go By 1. AD 2. Americanising Desi

Two things that scare you 1. Loneliness 2. Diseases

Two of Your Everyday Essentials 1. My Bag 2. Computer

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now 1. Pink Scarf 2. long shirt

Two of Your Favorite Bands or Musical Artists 1. Nickelback 2.Chris Brown

Two of Your Favorite Hobbies 1. Shopping 2. Blogging

Two Things You Want Really Badly 1. Blahnik Stilettos 2. A wedding

Two Places You Want to go on Vacation 1. Los Angeles 2. Old Europe

Two Things You Want to Do Before You Die 1. Kiss him 2. Marry him

Two Things You Are Thinking About Now 1. I have to pray harder 2. I need more mercy and more forgiveness from God

Two Stores You Shop At 1. Charles and Keith 2. Gap

Two people you haven’t talked to in a while 1. Nomi 2. Amy

Two favorite web sites 1. Soup.io 2. Facebook

Two People who will fill this out 1.Yellow Tulip 2. Leo

Two things you did last night 1. Sleep peacefully 2. Had bar B Q

Two shows you like to watch 1. CSI Miami 2. One Tree Hill

Two places you like to go to 1. The mall 2. Eating out

Two Favorite Subjects In School 1. Additional Math 2. English

Two Favorite Places to eat 1. Pizza Hut 2. Espresso

Two People that live in your house 1. My parents 2. My sisters

Two things you ate today 1. Mousse cake 2. Fruit custard

Two people you last talked to 1. My sister 2. My mom

Sunday Stealing: The Ellie Bellie Meme

what are your most common nicknames?
AD, Desi

what is today's weather?
It is humid and hot = horrid

where did go on vacation this year?
no where. planning one now to California.

when did you do there?
not applicable

where did you stay?
not applicable

what job do you do?
I am in Advertising

describe where you live.
I live in one of the commercial area of my city. Life starts and stops where I am at.

what do you usually do on weekends?
clean up and around. Includes beauty treatments and massages and my room as focal points.

what food hits your 'bliss spot'?
chinese!

what drink really does it for you?
just the thought of cosmopolitan :D but in real blueberry lemonade and strawberry frozen lemonade, blows my head off!

describe the first friend that comes to your head.
he does come who is not no more there. guess there is a hole. he was one of a kind. my most trusted confidant until I found out there was nothing confidential. everything was being leaked.

what was the last restaurant you went to?
I went to ... darn I dont remember. I guess I called delivery!

where would you like to live if you had unlimited moneys and nothing stopping your dreams?
Paris or Old Europe!

what is the likeliness of you achieving this dream home?
If I can find someone filthy rich willing to marry me

what do you like to do in your spare time?
blog!

what's your favorite genre for TV programs?
comedy or drama

what's your favorite genre for music?
rock and dance sometimes soul does have the best of me

what's your favorite song that's sad?
Iris- Goo Goo Dolls

what's your favorite soppy film?
hmmmm Nights in Rodanthe

how about your favorite chick flick?
there are so many of Meg Ryan's, but maybe 'he is not that into you' because that is the last I watched!

what are you looking forward to at the moment?
getting married asap

what are you dreading at the moment?
what if he never makes it? shall I be leading a solo life forever!

how would you describe your personality?
It is unpredictable. I am the balance that stays off balance and it all is people tuned. Whichever side they wanna see of me, they can press a button and get there. I am much of a people person than I would like to be.

if you had a personality eraser, what part of yours might you erase?
dependency on people and objects for my happiness and contentment.

you are given $5000 to spend in 1 day, what do you do with it? remember, no limitations!
I buy me love. I buy me a husband. Money spent well?

what is your biggest fear?
to never be able to find A MAN!

Convo with Myself #1

Sometimes I miss you. Then I remember why we drifted apart. I don’t miss you after that.

The Waiting

1. Have you ever stayed online for a very long time waiting for someone?

YES! for like an eternity and yet been disappointed!

2. How do you eat oreos?

With Milk! Yum Yum. I take the sandwich apart and then lick the cream :D

3. Are you cocky?

Nope. I am just corny :P

4. Did you have an imaginary friend as a kid?

LOL! no.

5. What t.v. station do you watch the most?

None. I am not a TV person at all. But if I watch I like The Disney Channel :P

6. Have you ever seen the ocean?

The Pacific I have. Couldn't see the Atlantic but had a flight over it. Scary!

7. Have you ever been hospitalized?

Yes when I was 6. For extreme case of diarrhea

8. What's your favorite brand of rootbeer?

Yukh! not any!

9. Could you live without a computer?

Hardly! I think only when I sleep!

Heart Burn #10

Our language is dead. No more heavy consonants and long vowels with soft meanings. No more names only you and I know.

Because no one speaks Us anymore.

Mind Fart #29

Today I was reminded of a friend who persisted on
'why you message me seher? what do you want from me?'
because that is what friends do, they message each other when even there is nothing to say.

'I can only offer you friendship and nothing beyond it!'
remind me where I asked you for something? hmm I must be deep in sleep!

'will you like it if your fiance talks to other girls?'
did you not tell me that you are not ready for a commitment for a decade? where did this fiance come from?
lol! ok so I wouldn't mind if it is my fiance's friend. I am not a pervert in the head like you.

and the next minute I am at this girl's blog, where he has left a message,
'long time no see, mail me'

LOL
LOL
LOL

I wish this internet did not have so many loop holes. You can track anybody down and if not shout at em, do tch tch!

Let me name this two week friend as Y.
Y started off with virtual coffee and then started to wander off and then finally I forced him for lunch because I hate hanging people for too long.

Makes me a bad person that I paid for our snack type lunch.

But well I was starting to know him by frequent text messaging and there was so much of jump from his end that I really fell off balance.

And P.S. all his conversations were about how much SEX is important! Touch is important!

So tell me, if I am ok with talking about it with a friend, does it give that friend the liberty to judge me and tell me, 'Oh I cannot offer you anything more than friends?' where did I spell what wrong? What exactly did I spell wrong?

My God!

I have deleted all his text messages or I would really have copy pasted them here :P

Yes I can be a real bitch when asked for.
I did not spare my Best Friend easy.
Jackasses are Forgiven, but never Forgotten!

and So I speaketh!

Heart Burn #9

If I fell in love with you, would you promise to be true and help me understand? Because I’ve been in love before, and I found that love was more than just holding hands. If I give my heart to you, I must be sure from the very start that you would love me more than her. If I trust in you, oh please don’t run and hide. If I love you too, oh please don’t hurt my pride like her; because I couldn’t stand the pain, and I would be sad if our new love was in vain. So I hope you see that I would love to love you…

-The Beatles

Life in Number

Tagged by Yellow Tulip and it was fun because mostly the numbers I could link with dates. Funny how predictable the human mind is. Enjoy how I relate each number with my life. Boring for some maybe.

1. I am the eldest. The number 1 naturally!

2. A palm reader told me I will be married twice. 1 down. 1 to go.

3. I have 3 younger siblings.

4. I live on the 4th floor of my apartment.

5. My best friend from school has her birthday on the 5th month and the 5th day of that month. cool na?

6. That is my lucky number. Moreso, my Day of Birth!

7. They say it is lucky but there is no 7 in my life. Really!

8. I cannot sleep for 8 hours and the doctors keep persisting.

9. I love this number. For an odd reason I just love it because it is 9 and I dont like 10.

10. My month number. I was born on the 10th month of the year. You do the calculations now ;)

11. They always remind me of the twin towers.

12. It is perfect because of the number of months in a year and the number of astrological signs. Every 12 hours the day changes to night and vice versa. How cool is that!

13. Unlucky! HARDLY!

14. My Uncle's wife's day of birth. I always remember it because when he got married I really looked up to his wife, whom I dislike now for her manners.

15. There have been at least 15 men, I can count as assholes or bastards.

16. My first crush was born on the 16th and to date I remember. It has been 15 years. MY GOD!

17. I might fly out of Karachi on the 17th of October.

18. I love it because 1 plus 8 = 9 :D

I tag YOU!

My Life According to (SONG/ARTIST NAME)

Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think!

-Are you a male or female?

Babe, Styx

-Describe yourself

A Woman in Love, Barbra Streisand

-How do you feel right now?

Like a Virgin, Madonna

-If you could go anywhere, where would you go?

Life in a Northern Town, The Dream Academy

-Your favorite form of transportation

Carry Me Through, The Lads

-Describe Your Morning Routine

Power and the Passion, Midnight Oil

-Your best friend is

Who's that Girl?, Eurythmics

-What's the weather like

Wind of Change, Scorpions

-Pet Peeve?

One Night Love Affair, Bryan Adams

-If your life was a TV show, what would it be called

Only in my dreams, Debbie Gibson

-Your relationship

Out of touch, Daryl Hall & John Oates

-Your Fear

Road to nowhere, Talking Heads

-What is the best advice you have to give?

learn what doesn't work first, then see how you can make it better

Faith Won't Fail, Katy Perry

-If you could change your name, you would change it to

Adawna, in Latin it means 'beautiful sunrise'

Angelia, Richard Marx

-What do you say when you are frustrated?

Beat it, Michael Jackson

-Thought for the day

Dare to be stupid, "Weird Al" Yankovic

-How you would like to die

Eye In the Sky, Alan Parsons Project

-Your soul's present condition

I Get Weak, Belinda Carlisle

-Your motto

I Won't Let The Sun Go Down On Me, Nik Kershaw

I Ran...

1. When's the last time you ran?

Two days ago on the jogging track to get faster to to to the gym ;)

2. Do your jeans have rips, tears, and holes in them?

No way. That is so not my fashion.

3. What are you dreading right now?

I received a really numb message from a friend which is making me think I am not really ready to rely on friends anymore. One day I wont need them at all.

4. Do you like Mexican food?

Tacosssssssss!!! yea yea!
Is Salsa Mexican? I love that too!

5. Favorite ice cream?

Strawberry and blueberry mix.

6. When was your last doctor's visit?

I think it was last year for my throat infection.

7. Do you get the full 8 hours of sleep a night?

I get 6 or 7, I cabt sleep more.

8. How many pets do you have?

None.

9. "First Loves Are Never Over;" is this true for you?

I guess it is true, not because you remember because there comes a time you dont, but there is nothing that takes over it. No new love is like it.

Decay a Graceful Riot

The heart is decaying in the attempt to seek,
But the question still remains ‘Where do I peek?’
Ah, until then when the man decides to riot
Will it ever cease the decay and the rust in my being?
Go with the drift of things they say,
Let the graceful winds and waves decide my way,
I will bow and accept the whatever end there may be
Will it ever be love? or will it only be a lonely destiny?

inspired by Robert Frost

Mind Fart#28

It makes me feel very hopeless sometimes. how am i supposed to have genuine friendships with authentic people when they don’t exist?

Heart Burn #8

You know what hurts the most?

The feeling of being replaced.

It’s like no matter what you did, it wasn’t enough. And no matter what you do to try and capture
their heart again, doesn’t seem to work.

And you’re suddenly left thinking that you’ll
never be enough.

And a sudden sadness captures your heart
that never really leaves.

Saturday 9: The Longest Time

1. What's the longest time that you've waited to meet your date?
Three months. It was a conscious wait.

2. What's the longest time that you've waited for a job interview?
25 minutes. For the present job I am in.

3. What's the longest time that you've waited to have sex the first time with someone?
LOL. How about now because I am high on Marriage and then Sex after that.

4. What's the longest time that you've not gone out on the town?
After 1999 I made my next trip in 2003 and that was the longest.

5. What's the longest time that you've worked without a break?
It has been 13 months and I am yet to avail my leave. I am planning it. Hope it happens soon.

6. What's the longest time that you've not posted on your blog?
I took a long break from 2006 to 2007, a whole year and then I deleted the blog and started a new one. I love writing I don’t know if I can ever take a long break.

7. What's the longest time that you've been on the computer?
I spent 36 hours over a presentation and my back gave up on me for the next 48 hours after that. Bad memories.

8. What's the longest time that you've waited for a friend?
Hmm! I think it wouldn’t have been more than an hour, and I don’t have a specific recall of that either.

9. What's the longest time that you've gone without food?
18 hours because I was fasting.

Confused!

I grew up thinking I could jinx the world and make it work in my favor. But guess what? I grew older and it worked in all ways to capture me instead and now I qualify for nothing but confusions and complications.

My Three Word Wednesday

Heart Burn #7

If you want to be my lover...
You must be willing to sing A Whole New World with me…on the first date!

Then vs. Now

Then: August 1999

1. Age:
16

2. Romantic Status:
Single and Available but Incurably Romantic

3. Occupation:
Student

4. Fun night out:
Girls Night Out at the Beach

5. My BFFs:
One Ass of a friend!

6. I spent way too much time:
Thinking about WHAT IS BECOMING OF LIFE

7. I spent not enough time:
Working hard for good grades

8. I wanted to be when I grew up:
Doctor

9. Biggest concern:
What is the Destination of Life!

10. What my biggest concern should have been:
which college should it be ultimately!

11. Where did I live:
Where I am now

12. Dumbest thing I did that year:
I think I had cold hands and feet when he bent down to autograph my shirt

13. If I could go back now and talk to myself I would say:
Listen you, Get Married Now!

14. Picture of me then:
You dont wanna see it!

Now: August 2009

1. Age:
26

2. Romantic Status:
Single and Available and Incurably Hopelessly Madly Insanely Romantic

3. Occupation:
Working towards being a Housewife

4. Fun night out:
Did not have it in a long time so no recalls anymore

5. My BFFs:
Had one, he dumped me, so no BFFs anymore

6. I spend way too much time:
Blogging Romance

7. I spend not enough time:
In the field of Romance

8. I want to be when I grow up:
You mean next step? Housewife!

9. Biggest concern:
When the heck is marriage in my stars!

10. What my biggest concern should be:
Have I done enough good to be deserving marriage?

11. Where do I live:
Same place, same locality!

12. Dumbest thing I have done this year:
I confessed feelings for the wrong person

13. What I think I would say to myself in 10 years:
Three adorable kids, a husband and our little home

Summary:

1. What do I miss most from 1999:
Friends parted

2. What do I miss least from 1999:
my 11 year schooling came to an end

3. What have I accomplished in 10 years that I am most proud of:
I am eligible to be everything and anything. Just don't dare me **wink

4. What have I NOT accomplished in 10 years that I wish I had:
Matrimony!

Mind Fart #27

I think that most people who act homophobic are just questioning their own sexuality and afraid to admit it.
Still, it doesn’t make them any less ridiculous.

Heart Burn #6

Humor 101

hahahahaha!

See I dont wanna get to a point where I have to ask a weird question like that :P

Heart Burn #5

Rain Rain Come Again

1. What do you typically like to do on a rainy day?

On a Rainy Day, I typically want to grab hold of a friend and hit the sea or the road and listen to really mushy songs, flap my wings and fly away.

It really excites me. I love rain and the rain dance I do when no one is looking, yes yes I have been dying to do that since forever.

2. Tell us about the last time you did something you later regretted, that you can share with us.

Do I look stupid ;)

Well I was on the verge of a confession and then I held it back. It goes against my beliefs. If I like someone, I don't feel ashamed of telling them, but some man will find it totally awkward because I am a girl. So me not telling him how I feel really is something I regret.

3. I recently got an email from a lover from a very long time ago. I was asked "Have all your dreams come true?" If it were you and it was from someone you remember fondly, how would you answer the question?

Since you have left, they just started coming true. One moment at a time.

4. If you had a job interview and was asked, "If you were an animal, what kind would you be (other than human?)" How would you answer that question.

If I were to be more ferocious and more wild and more crazy I'd be a lioness. I'd love to have the cat's vulnerability and cuddibility and the lioness's roar and wild streak, what passion that animal has ROARRRR!!!

5. Do you think it is a good idea to share with a new lover stories of your past lovers?

Depends. I'd rather not talk about it, because I want new things happening. But if they just pop up, I guess we could just talk about some things and not EVERYTHING!

6. When do you think it is permissible or even important to lie?

To make someone yours completely and forever. I think I will lie if I see that my truth will make some one I love so much abandon me. But after that lie, I will make sure there are no more lies. Yes.

7. What was the last thing you did that you never thought you would?

Escape to a place where I thought I'd have to get all yes from everyone and then go but I decided for my own self and it really felt good to stand up for my self once.

8. What is one important lesson that you learned from your mother?

That patience is always rewarding. No matter what I feel like saying when the tide is high, when I dont it pays off much more better.

9. What is one important lesson that you learned from your father?

That what I do when no one is looking is what my character is about. Yes I may be flirty and dirty with someone, because of a reason of liking and they can totally judge me as a 'whore' but on a real note, dad always says, a girl should always be clean and I try to keep me clean, always.