G r e e t i n g s!

Love, an ambush!

You meddled with my mind and left me thinking of nothing but you.
How could you do such a hideous thing to me?
Did you not say you want me?
Love me?
Is love an ambush for you?
Because the way I felt it, you ensnared me skillfully
and ran off leaving me behind with memories
I can’t seem to untangle from no matter how much I try.

The Final Week of 2009 Meme

1. What did you do in 2009 that you'd never done before?
Hmmm... this is tough. If I rewind my 2009 I watched lesser movies than I ever do every year and yes did not visit my FLIXTER account at all!

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I failed miserably after the 2nd month. Every month I blogged about the things I would be doing the next month and after two months that list disappeared!@

3. How will you be spending New Year's Eve?
There are some programmes on television I am looking forward to watching

4. Did anyone close to you die?
This year my mother's cousin passed away. Yes we were close

5. What countries did you visit?
Dubai, USA, Zurich

6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
I'd like to have love. REALLY REALLY!

7. What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
None. Nothing so wow happened!

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I got the hang of being a copy writer and concept writer together

9. What was your biggest failure?
Hmmm... I am still stuck on a miserable pay

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Yes I have been ill all through. Flu and bad throat!

11. What was the best thing you bought?
I bought me some awesome night gowns from La Senza

12. Where did most of your money go?
In buying clothes

13. What song will always remind you of 2009?
Nickelback- Gotta Be Somebody

14. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Be POSITIVE

15. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Whine and be miserable

16. What was your favourite TV program?
I always prefer DVD over TV

17. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Nope. Hate is a strong word, I keep it out of my life.

18. What was the best book you read?
I have been bad with reading books this year. None that I can say was best!

19. What was your greatest musical discovery?
LADY ANTEBELLUM

20. What was your favorite film of this year?
i watched revolutionary Road this year and Loved it! watched Nights in Rodanthe this year and fell in love all over again!

21. What did you do on your birthday?
Be miserable because a lot of close people forgot.

22. What kept you sane?
Faith in Almighty

23. Who did you miss?
No one at all. Except him who I have to find first

24. Who was the best new person you met?
lol. Really no one at all

25. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009:
Everything takes longer than they tell you. Yes everyone will wish you well but that won't decrease the time fate has in store.

Saturday 9: Sam's Last Stand of 2009

1. What did you think of 2009?
It just flew by and I had no time to stop and admire anything around me

2. What do you think was the news story of the year?
There were no stories, my country has been going through a terrible time and I pray it comes out of the misery soon.

3. What happened this year that you never want to hear another word about?
Too many deaths and bloodshed all around.

4. What was your favorite song of 2009?
Gotta be somebody- nickelback

5. What did you accomplish this year?
Just another year added to my life.

6. Did you learn anything new this year?
Yes. That time is not my best friend.

7. What are you looking forward to in the new year?
A lot. I am always high on expectations with every new year.

8. What are your plans for New Year's Eve?
Sit home and watch t.v.

9. What's the best thing you ever did on a New Year's Eve?
Nothing as yet.

Rigid Stains

Never hinder and always remember, saying, “I love you” to your spouse and loved ones is simply a way to collect treasures on the journey of life and love together. But most of all it has a powerful impact when you mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt no matter how rigid the stains of it are, but only when it comes from deep inside of you.

Queer

She swayed her brush and splashed black paint one way and bleakly swished it again splatting red paint in the other direction and voila she created a masterpiece.

No, something was off. Very queerly it was far from perfection, but it was perfect with all its imperfections.

It was far from a masterpiece, but with its spots and trails and unformed shapes it was a sign, that something was nearing completeness.

She mixed in words, some music, her love and pieces of her life and the creation began to take form, deciphering itself to the world.

It seemed nonrhythmic yet beautiful, distorted yet obvious, it was destructive harmony.

Unconditionally she hiccuped and smiled a while, she swished the brush again and fashioned imagination into creation.

A story in 6 sentences :)
for Three Word Wednesday

Solemn

I am leading myself into my grave; not because life doesn’t hold me in embrace but because I have repeatedly let me down and no more can I go on like this. My lithe body is now rigid and limp and all it desires is to cuddle with the earth and let it caress my remaining essence.

Dear Life,

I have never meant to offend you but I know I have. Please forgive me. Let me go now.

For 3WW

Romanticism

I can't explain the tickle in my heart when I see images like the above.

Sumptuous

Because it’s only when you’re kicked that you truly discover who you are. And it’s only when you’re fondled that you discover who you can be. The person that you want to be does exist, somewhere in the other side of determination, struggle and faith, and belief in the sumptuous which lies beyond the heartache and fear of what life has in store for you.

* Three Word Wednesday

You Cannot Deny

THAT HE EXISTS!


for WORDLESS WEDNESDAY

The Dating Profiles Meme: Go Fish

1. Like to go fishing. Not really interested in hunting anymore.
You have murdered enough and hence you are being kind?

2. When describing my best traits, I kind of sound like I'm describing a puppy.
Awww so you do admit you evolved from the doggy!

3. I'm not an alcoholic or anything, but I do enjoy high proof beverages.
Distorted and Demented you are!

4. I seriously have a radar for freaks so stay clear because I won’t respond.
My My you know yourself and that is commendable.

5. With the exception of living out my dreams of spending my life on the shoreline, there is absolutely nothing I lack.
You are dreaming of the inside of the sea while you are sitting on the shoreline, what are you doing?

6. Sight unseen, trust me when I say this. On a scale of 1-10, I am an absolute 10!
For the dim wit you are going to meet this will be flying left right and centre!

7. I can be so intense sometimes I even scare myself.
You are doing Dr. Jekyl and Mr. Hyde thing for real?

8. I want someone funny but not a spaz.
Do you crack your jokes and keep a straight face?

9. Well, the truth is, I'm a nerd who's looking for another nerd to spend happy hours doing nerd-like things together.
Sure that is too much. All the nerd-i-ness will pop into science and eventually give birth you mean!

10. I'm looking for a long term sizzle rather than jet-lagged flash.
I pity you for having such a demented definition for your choice. Sizzle and Flash are some what the same if you check and if it Sizzles for long it'll burn!

The Tell Me About Yourself Meme

1. When is your birthday?
October 6

2. Where were you born?
Karachi, Pakistan

3. Where do you live now?
Karachi, Pakistan

4. What is your heritage?
Trailing from Moghul courts as Judge

5. Tell us about a weakness.
I am addicted to MUSH

6. What's a goal that you'd like to achieve?
Housewife and family

7. What is the most overused internet phrase?
Whazzzup?

8. What was your first thought this morning?
Gosh I slept too much!

9. When do you usually go to bed?
Around midnight

10. Do you smoke? If not, did you ever?
No No No

11. Do you like your current relationship status?
No

12. Do you (or did you) get along with your parents?
It is 50-50

13. How often do you drink alcohol?
Never

14. Have you ever tried drugs (that weren't prescribed)?
I do self med for my headaches sometimes

15. Have you ever gone skinny dipping? If yes, do tell.
NOOOO but I SO WANNA

16. If given the choice, how would you like to die?
Die in my sleep

17. What did you want to be when you grew up?
A doctor

18. Have you ever been dumped?
mmm NO

19. What's on your pizza?
Mushroom and Olives

20. Have you ever shoplifted?
hahaha NO!

Give Obvious Thanks

I don’t pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can give you that dose of love you’ll cherish forever. It is obvious that love happens while you are in process of knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, it is telling them about you just randomly and always saying thanks, even when they say ‘no sorry and no thank you’; love is by far the best feeling and even when I don’t have someone by my side I feel comfortable and safe because I know love and I thank Almighty for giving me a taste of it because most just live on craving even while they have it. Obviously they are the ungrateful bunch.

My THREE WORD WEDNESDAY

Colors

My attempt for a wordless getaway on WORDLESS WEDNESDAY

Well Open Up Your Mind & See ME

Well Open Up Your Mind & See Like Me;

Ready for the most random questions known to quiz history?
Sureee.

Last person you showered naked with?
Ahaaaa and why am I telling you that?

Your best friend has sex with your ex, what happens?
So what?

What happened last time you got drunk?
I’ve never been drunk.

Have you taken off someone’s pants recently?
naaaa

Do you bite your toe nails?
are you mad?

If someone said to you “nice ass” you say?
Oh thanks ass!

Your friend kisses the boy/girl you like, what do you do?
ok so she got him first.

Last thing you said out loud?
Can’t remember…

Last time you laughed your head off?
don't remember

What do you want right this second?
have green tea

How are you sitting?
in my cubicle at work

Can I have your number?
911

Your mood?
Better. At peace!

If you could change one thing this year about your life would you?
Give up this single life.

Would you be surprised if your most recent ex called you tonight?
Very very suprised.

Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you?
Someone who cannot be named!

Did you sleep alone last night?
yes

This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
No one.

Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow?
it is a working day. can't.

Does it matter to you if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?
yes it matters. he shouldn't.

Do you find piercings attractive?
not on men.

What were you doing last night at midnight?
watching T.V.

Waiting for something?
Yup Yup Yup!

Was yesterday terrible?
Nope. It was perfectly ok.

Did you accept or reject your last friend request?
I rejected it.

Whats your favorite number?
1.

Who is your last received call from?
My tailor.

Do you think the last person you kissed cares for you?
hmm. he did then.

How many cigarettes have you smoked today?
Zero.

Do you have a hard time admitting you’re wrong?
Sometimes.

Have you ever kissed underneath the stars?
Not yet.

Do you like potato chips?
Yes. Having them now.

Do you give out second chances way to easily?
Definitely, sometimes it is a good thing, sometimes bad.

Ever stayed up all night on the phone?
Yes.

What were you doing at 10:00 this morning?
At work working.

Hot tea or Iced tea?
Both.

What was the weather like today?
Pretty cool.

Where did your last hug take place?
In a room.

What are you excited for?
Everything.

Last person you spoke to?
My dad.

Are you ticklish?
Yes.

Are your ears pierced?
Yeah.

Bar soap or body wash?
Body wash.

Do you chew on your straws?
Sometimes.

Do you have curly hair?
Wavy.

What 1 item do you always pick up at the grocery store?
Cereal.

What is something you say a lot?
Absolutely!

Do you think you are pretty?
Definitely.

What are you doing tonight?
Watching a movie.

What was your last missed call?
Unknown number.

Do you have a nickname?
AD

What are you listening to?
receptionist on the phone.

Is there anyone you like right now?
everyone at work.

Did you cry today?
Nope.

How big is your bed?
Queen size

Do you know someone with the same birthday as you?
No.

Do you have a globe in your house?
Nope.

Number of pillows you sleep with?
2

What type of watch do you wear?
DKNY

Can you play pool?
Not really…

Craziest place you have slept?
Nowhere

Would you ever lie to get an ex back?
NEVER!

Have you ever been cheated on?
Nope

Do you still love your ex?
NO

Ever kissed your friend’s boyfriend or girlfriend?
No

If given a chance, would you like to have your ex back?
No

What were you doing last night around 3 am?
Sleeping.

If you HAD to kiss someone right now, who would it be?
Hugh Jackman

Have you ever slapped someone?
Haha maybe. Only playfully.

What was the last thing you drank?
7 up

Do you think there are circumstances when it’s okay to wait for someone?
Course, i’ve spent the last 4 years doing so!

Are you wearing anything on your feet?
Sandals

What’s your last scar from?
popped pimple

Can you count on anyone to be there for you, always?
My parents.

Do you ever miss your past?
Never!

Is it possible to be single and happy?
No.

Is it easier to forgive or forget?
Forgive.

Will you sleep alone tonight?
Yeah.

Do you think being “heart broken” is as bad as people say?
Worse.

Do you prefer ily, or i love you?
I love you.

Who’s car were you in last?
My dads.

Would you rather date someone older than you or younger?
Older.

Are you aiming anyone while doing this?
Open to all.

Will you have a boyfriend/ girlfriend in 6 months?
Who knows But I want a HUSBAND.

Have you ever been so embarrassed that you cried?
Yeah afterwards!

Do you live near your friends?
Yeah, pretty much.

The Party Mummy Meme

1. Name someone with the same birthday as you.
No clue

2. Where was your first kiss?
On the beach

3. Have you ever hit someone of the opposite sex? If yes, why?
Nope

4. Have you ever sung in front of a large number of people? When?
Yes when I was in choir.

5. What's the first thing you notice about your preferred sex?
The overall toe to head scan.

6. What really turns you off?
Stupid Questions and Idiotic Assumptions.

7. What is your biggest mistake?
To give people a.k.a friends the liberty to question me for my doing and statements.

8. Have you ever hurt yourself on purpose?
I cut my foot once just to get my ex husband's attention.

9. Say something totally random about yourself.
I can go to extremes to make my dreams come true.

10. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
Yes but there a whole mix of it so I don't know which one I look really like except MYSELF!

11. Do you still watch kiddie movies or TV shows?
Yes. Love them any day.

12. Are you comfortable with your height?
An inch would have done wonders, but still I am glad with my height.

13. What is the most romantic thing someone of the preferred sex has done for you?
Surprised me with red roses.

14. When do you know it's love?
I knew it when it was, now it isn't.

15. What's something that really annoys you?
Questions and Answers at the moment.

Talking in Your Sleep

1. Has anyone in your life talked in their sleep?
Yup my Grandma

2. What do you like about fall?
It is pleasant than the other months. Nothing too extreme about it.

3. Do you have an addictive personality?
I should ask those whom I meet.

4. Who was the last person to do something extra special for you?
Neil, just a facebook friend and I haven't even met him.

5. Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
I don't know my reaction to something which hasn't happened before my eyes.

6. Are you happy with where you are in life?
Not really happy but happy that my time isn't over yet.

7. Do you believe that you can change someone?
Yes. I have had that chance and honor.

8. Have you ever wished you could've had someone but you couldn't?
Yes, my best friend. I prayed and I tried convincing him in indirect ways but never took the clue.

9. Would you ever fight someone over your significant other?
DEFINITELY!

Consider this

You can run from the disappointments you’re trying to forget. But as a promise of life to you, your past will be loyal to you and it is only when you embrace the obscene accidents, mistakes and regrets that you will truly move forward.

Prompted by Three Word Wednesday

Spotting the Signs of Depression

Reading an article and nodding at everything said in it seems to conclude, I am fatally depressed. Obviously like any human I am trying to look beyond the horizon and seek that which fate offers, knowing that I deserve better and the good will eventually dawn etc. but that inner crunch is not dying and it just gets worse and I get angrier.

Yes my dad will tell me I have left my faith in God, but that isn't the case. I am much more dependent on him than I ever was. I love Him and I know that He knows my pain and every ache I go through. I pray to Him and I am trying to follow the path He has asked all of us to walk upon. Truly I am a little sick in my little head. I will recover, only when I see a visible outlet for recovery. Sorry to make you angry at me, I can't help this feeling and hence i will have to scribble.

Symptoms of Depression: 10 Warning Signs
People with serious depression do not all have the same symptoms, but they may include:

• Sadness. When feeling sad is a symptom of depression, it may include feeling hopeless and empty. You may find that no matter how hard you try, you just can't control your negative thoughts. You may find yourself crying for no obvious reason.
CHECK!
I don't seem to lose the sight of sadness. It just is there when I raise my head.

• Guilt. People with severe depression may feel that they are worthless and helpless. They may even experience their depression as a sign of weakness, and can be overly self-critical.
CHECK!
I am worthless or as some people keep telling me. I don't listen to anyone, but when people who matter say it, it kinda shakes my life.

• Irritability. This depression symptom may cause you to feel angry, anxious, or restless. Men who are seriously depressed often express their depression through aggression or reckless behavior.
CHECK!
Yes! I have been easy to tick off.

• Mental symptoms. If you have trouble concentrating, making decisions, or remembering details, these could be symptoms of depression. People with depression may feel that their thought processes have slowed down.
CHECK!
It has. I am back at work and all I can think of is NO WORK PLEASE. Want to go home.

• Physical symptoms. People with depression often have aches and pains, headaches, or digestive problems that do not seem to have any other medical cause and do not respond to treatment.
CHECK!
I have been having headaches often and I don't depend on meds.

• Loss of energy. If you have depression, you may feel tired all the time. People with depression may feel that their physical abilities are slowed down.
CHECK!
I feel drained by the start of mid day.

• Loss of interest. A common depression symptom is loss of interest in pleasurable activities like sex, hobbies, or social interactions. This may also show up as neglecting your responsibilities and your physical grooming.
CHECK!
In everything. I am just dragging!

• Sleep changes. Waking up too early in the morning, not being able to fall asleep, or sleeping too much can all be symptoms of depression.
CHECK!
I sleep late and I wake up early. Kinda sad for me.

• Appetite changes. Changes in eating habits due to depression can result in eating too much or too little. A weight gain or loss of more than 5 percent of your body weight in one month is one of the warning signs of depression. Some people experience a loss of interest in food, while for others food becomes a way of compensating for feelings of depression.
CHECK!
I have been regular with gym and yet I feel I have miles to go to shed any excess!

• Suicidal thoughts. Having thoughts of harming yourself is a serious symptom of depression and always needs to be taken seriously. If you’re thinking about suicide, you need to get help immediately.
CHECK!
Always! but then the God-fearing me kicks the life back into me.

ALL TEN CHECKS!

SEDUCTION

Simmering into the night
Effervesce lit reverence light
Direct and pleasing discussion
Unbinding in sweet fashion
Combining candlelight and indulgence
The voice of seduction
Intelligent, sensitive, sovereign,
Only welcoming roaring highs
Nuzzling together passionate sighs

Acrostic Only

The Over the Top Meme

Part One - Describe:

Your hair? wavy

Your mother? patient

Your father? bold

Your favorite food? chinese

Your dream last night? blank

Your favorite drink? green tea

Your dream/goal? housewife

The room are you in? is messy

Your hobby? is to exercise

Your fear? is to become obese

Your TV? plays DVD only

Your Pets? none

Friends? very few

Your life? is a junk

Your mood? is down and up, up and down

If you're missing someone? my old self

Your best friend? is non-existent

Part Two - The Where's?

Where do you want to be in 6 years? in my house, with my husband and a couple of kids

Where were you last night? shopping

where did you grow up? in karachi

One place that I go to over and over? my bathroom

Your favorite place to eat out? i m picky and moody

Wish list items? macbook and mac makeup

Last time you laughed? i wonderrrrrrrrrrrr

Last time you cried? last night

Part Three - The What's?

Something that you aren't? slut

Last thing you did? drink green tea

What are you wearing? pjs and t-shirt

Something you're not wearing? makeup

Your favorite store? walmart

Mind Fart #33

Errant youngsters victimize their own fates hankering in murky waters.

for 3WW

The Strange Question Meme, Part 2

26. What color is your watch?
Gold

27. What do you think of when you hear “Australia”?
Hugh Jackman! Bret Lee! Russell Crowe!

28. Would you strip for money?
Ha what you see a stripper in me?

29. Do you go in a fast food place or just hit the drive thru?
Go to the fast food place or call home delivery

30. What is your favorite number?
1

31. Who’s the last person you talked to on the phone?
My driver I think :P

32. Any plans today?
Nope will sit home and read "Why men love bitches"

33. In how many states have you lived?
I have visited California only

34. Biggest annoyance right now?
There is no candidate for love or marriage FOR ME

35. Last song listened to?
I am on the roll with Bollywood songs right now.

36. Can you say the alphabet backwards?
Cant go further after V

37. Do you have a maid service clean your house?
I have a maid to clean every day

38. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time?
My flat sandals. Beige which matches anything

39. Are you jealous of anyone?
Yes, ALL MARRIED COUPLES

40. Is anyone jealous of you?
They don't tell me so I don't know

41. Do you love anyone?
No ONE! in that way yet

42. Do any of your friends have children?
YES most of them

43. What do you usually do during the day?
I usually am at work, working

44. Do you hate anyone that you know right now?
No. I am over that hate age

45. Do you use the word hello daily?
No. I use hey or hy unless it is answering the phone.

46. What color is your car?
Dont have a personal car yet

47. What size wedding ring do you wear?
Blah!

48. Are you thinking about someone right now?
yes him whom I have never met!

49. Have you ever been to Six Flags?
No

50. How did you get your worst scar?
I don't want a rewind

Be True to Your School

1. What was your favorite subject in high school?
Additional Mathematics

2. Do you watch reality shows? Which ones?
No time for reality on TV

3. What's your favorite all time reality show?
None

4. Do you feel "reality" shows are real or are they faked?
I don't bother putting my mind to it

5. What did you look like when you were a teenager?
A retarded malnourished girl

6. Whose advice do you listen to?
My innerself

7. How often are you sick?
Many time in a year

8. Do you like or dislike change?
I like it esp when I know it is for the better

9. How many times in your life have you had a broken heart?
Twice. Once when my hubby left and second when my best friend left

Karma

Ok I know it and you know it — that I’m an absolute sucker for idealism over reality any day, but I always find something not so intriguing about karma hence it has never registered with either my idealism or my reality. Heck, I don't see myself obeying it any time soon just to have me withered away into a better something in my next life. There will be no reincarnation and in the next world when I wake up I will be human, just a bit more transparent and heavenly **wink

Hope you enjoy my real take on 3WW

The Strange Question Meme, Part 1

1. What is the color of your toothbrush?
PINK

2. Name one person who made you smile today.
NO ONE

3. What were you doing at 8 am this morning?
SLEEPING

4. What were you doing 45 minutes ago?
CHECKING FARMVILLE

5. What is your favorite candy bar?
TWIX

6. Have you ever been to a strip club?
NOPE

7. What is the last thing you said aloud?
CANT FIND IT!

8. What is your favorite ice cream? How to choose?
I TRY NEW FLAVORS ALWAYS. VANILLA IS MY FAVE.

9. What was the last thing you had to drink?
WATER

10. Do you like your wallet?
NOPE. PLANNING TO BUY A NEW ONE.

11. What was the last thing you ate?
DRY FRUIT

12. Have you bought any new clothing items this week?
NO

13. The last sporting event you watched?
CRICKET

14. What is your favorite flavor of popcorn?
LEMON and CHICKEN

15. Who is the last person you sent a text message to?
MY PREGNANT FRIEND

16. Ever go camping?
NO

17. Do you take vitamins daily?
NO

18. Do you go to church every Sunday?
NOT APPLICABLE

19. Do you have a tan?
NO

20. Do you prefer Chinese food over pizza?
YES YES ANY DAY

21. Do you drink your soda with a straw?
YES :D

22. What did your last text message say?
IT WAS SOME FORWARD MESSAGE WHICH I DID NOT READ.

23. What are you doing tomorrow?
NOT PLANNED

24. Favorite color?
SEA GREEN

25. Look to your left; what do you see?
A COUPLE OF CLOTHES HANGERS